I have no friends?

I have absolutely no friends and im in college. its so hard for me to build a relationship in any way because i get scared. in middle school, i was made fun of because i wanted to fit in, but my look/personality did not suit them so of course i got teased and this girl i really like literally said i was ugly to my face and all my "friends" taunted me for it. in high school, i was always made fun of harshly because of my race but i wanted to be friends with them so i stuck around. but i think they really ruined my soul, especailly white people because they made fun of me so much (everyday) for being asian. i basically have been made fun of ever since i got out of elementary school...now im so pessimistic but i was always such a sweet kid now, i fear i have problems. i feel like i won't be able to succeed at aanything, i have tried to think positively and stop feeling sorry for myself but its so hard when you have been pput down since such a young age